Jake got a job working for Geico as an auto damage adjuster. This is going to be a GREAT opportunity for us. He will work "normal" hours (may have Sundays/Mondays instead of Saturdays/Sundays for weekends....but still much better than his Pep Boys schedule!) The pay is 8 million times better, and there are great benefits! We are going to switch to his medical once we have Kennedy because it is so much cheaper. I am really excited for this position. The downfall is that he is away for THREE WHOLE MONTHS for training. He doesn't get to come home on weekends...in fact he gets to come home once every 4 weeks and it is only for a day and a half. When he first signed up for the job they told him he wouldn't be able to leave if I went into labor...and as you can imagine it was absolutely crushing. We tried for SO LONG to get pregnant and for him to miss the birth of his daughter just absolutely killed me. Needless to say there have been a LOT of cries....I try to stay positive but he is missing a lot. I miss my husband SO MUCH.
He went to San Diego for the first 4 weeks. I got to fly down there and see him for Labor Day weekend which was halfway through his trip. It was an amazing visit...and a little mini vacation for us before Kennedy is here.
I soaked in every second I could with him....just to have him next to me and to be able to look into his eyes...I felt that closeness again. I left that Monday and cried all over again. We said goodbye at the airport and the TSA agent brought me tissues because I was crying so hard. It just sucks...and the transitions are the hardest. Being able to see eachother for a short time to have it taken away again....rips my heart out every time.
He came home this weekend. He got in at 5pm on Friday and I had to drop him off at the airport at 4:30am on Sunday. SHORT TRIP....but it still felt good to be in his arms. You know that saying "absense makes the heart grow fonder"? I didn't think it was possible to love him anymore than I already did....but this has definitely strengthened our relationship where I didn't even think was possible. This is the long leg of the trip. He is now in Virginia (completely on the other side of the country from me!) and will be there for 4 weeks. There is no way we will be able to see eachother during this trip unless I go into labor! A week before he left San Diego one of the bigwigs got news that his wife was due in October and took him aside and let him know that he CAN leave if I go into labor...and that they know how important it is for him to be there for it. It was such a HUGE RELIEF for me. There is nothing I want more than for him to be there when Kennedy arrives. We made her together, we should be able to bring her into this world together! The only downfall is if he is in Virginia when I go into labor, he will have to wait it out until another training takes place and join in with them..and then still do the third 4 week leg after that. So....while he would be there for her birth, he would miss more of her life because he would be going away for another 6-8 weeks after she arrives.......
So...all we can do now is stay positive that she won't make her appearance until after these next 4 weeks. Once Virginia is done, his last 4 weeks are in San Diego and it is post-training....so it is much easier and not such a big deal if he misses anything because he can make up for it at any time. I can tell you this.....I can't wait for this to be over with. I miss my husband. I miss everything about him...even those little things that used to annoy me...I can't wait for him to do it all over again! I was proud of myself this morning when we said goodbye. I stayed strong the entire time and didn't cry! A couple hours later it hit me hard and I have pretty much cried the entire day....thank you pregnancy hormones for making me even MORE sensitive! I also found out that he can't carry his cell phone on him at the training center....so if I go into labor I have to call their main office and some how track him down. A little unsettling to say the least...
As for the pregnancy, things are going really well. Kennedy and I are both very healthy and I have been truly blessed with such a great pregnancy. I am in my 35th week and I would do it all again in a heartbeat. There hasn't been one time in pregnancy that I have been miserable...I can tolerate all of the physical changes..and I LOVE LOVE LOVE feeling her kicks!!
Ever since I was about 25 weeks I have been measuring two weeks ahead (although I am still down 5 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight! GO ME!) They haven't been concerned....and said it happens. Well, my appointment on Friday was a whole new story. I am now measuring FOUR WEEKS AHEAD. I am measuring at 38 1/2 weeks! WOAH!!!! So....I have an ultrasound scheduled at 36 weeks to measure how big she is...and if she is big they are going to talk induction. Hopefully if I do need to be induced it can wait until October 14th (the day Jake comes home for the weekend)......we really don't want him to have an extra 6-8 weeks away from us nor can we afford a last minute flight from Virginia...and the chance of him missing the birth since it is a 6 hour flight!
I am sorry for all of the rambling...extremely emotional and tired...and I wanted to fit in everything I could. I start maternity leave in a week and two days....CAN'T WAIT!!!
Also, we had a 3D ultrasound done at 30 weeks....here is a picture of Kennedy! She is so adorable and looks just like her daddy....I can't wait to meet her in real life!
You can make it through. You are so strong and I am so incredibly proud of you. And, if Kennedy is born on October 14, she'll have the same birthday as my dad!
ReplyDeleteI'm just a phone call away if you need anything, even just someone to listen to you cry. I know how it is. Just remember that there is an end in sight. I love you, sister!!!